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Name: Melissa
Gender: Female
Interests: God, Jesus, church, family, online friendships, friendships outside of the internet, snow, Bible Quizzing, Spanish, ASL, English vocabulary & grammar, ping pong, deck tennis, carpetball, word searches, slamball...
Occupation: Living for God and Jesus!
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Member Since:
10/24/2006
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| My friend Angie is scheduled to have surgery at 3 today. I'm praying for her, the doctors and her family. I absolutely believe in the power of prayer, so please join me. | | |
| Such depth of pain, no one understands. I'm alone. My best friend - gone. My life - gone. Everytime I need someone, no one's here. I cry alone. I can't be who you want me to be. I can't do what you think I can. If I could, I would. It's frustrating. I feel COMPLETELY alone.
I'm bitter, deeply saddened, angry and don't want to keep trying. It's so hard and no one seems to grasp how hard it is. Maybe I'm just too selfish and expect everyone to always care about me. I'm sure that's too much. Why am I this way? Why am I even here? I don't want to be. Someone else could've been given the chance instead of me. Maybe they would've made the most of it. I just.... *sigh*
I quit taking my meds, bad idea. I just couldn't keep going on with how tired they made me feel, but now I'm even more paranoid and depressed than before. It's awful. ANYTHING can make me feel like crying. Sometimes I don't even know why.
Eh, so there you have it. It's an update - as discouraging as it is...
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| Maybe I'm manic depressive... Today I feel extremely sad and alone. I'm no one's top priority anymore. Everyone has their own lives. It's not fair or reasonable of me to think they should or can say hi. They have their own joys and burdens to concern themselves with. I've been taking everyone for granted. I'm sorry. Hope is one thing, expecting something to happen is another. I'm just so lonely. My main love language is touch. I used to get hugged a lot everyday, now I go days without being touched. I like strong hugs and most people don't give them. I'm starting to feel more. I don't like it, but I need to. It just makes me feel more alone. It hurts so much and the pain is so deep. I just pray it doesn't break me. | | |
| What an emotional, invigorating, powerful, liberating and life-changing event! How much more awesome can you get?! How riveting! I hope I can go to one this year. I don't know what I'd be doing for sure, but I really want to go. Next year, I hope to participate on a team walking around the track. I'm not sure how it's all going to go down or what it all entails, but I'm excited and more passionate about it than ever! I'll participate for as long as I am able. I can't even accurately describe how I feel about it and I haven't even been to one yet! I'm certain this is just something you have to experience to truly understand and I'm ready for it! May God get the glory through it all. | | |
| *wants a hug from AC* Haven't seen her in three weeks. I was supposed to, but she's been sick. Hopefully, I can see her this week or I'm really going to crack. I'm starting to already. When I need the people the most, no one's around. My fault - I should call, but I don't want to impose. This is really when I feel alone. Taking it all on myself. They're my burdens, but they're about to crush me. EDIT: Finally! I saw her!!! I love talking to her. She's just awesome. God really blessed me when He sent her into my life. Thank You, Lord! | | |
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